God Is So Good

Last time I posted here about the so many projects I have for the last two weeks of the term. That include the project in natural sciences which is the PBL presentation about ecstasy.

I went to Metropoint to asked if they can make some remedy about the project. If they can make the video clearer. Unfortunately, no one knows how to do it. So I went home to make myself relax and not feel stress on the project.

Its already eleven in the evening when my sister decided to open the computer. Actually I’m afraid to open it ‘coz the last time I used it to burn that project, it shut down so I went to bed for me not to be blamed. haha!!!

My sister asked my other sister, “why database occur in the computer? Ayaw ma-open” I heard it from bed!!! My body starts sweating. Oh my God!!! What am I going to do???

Then a while later, it was opened. Hoooh!!! It was like I was plead not guilty for the crime I really did!!! I’m then confident to sleep.

I can’t sleep so I decided to try again converting the video I made. I was hopeless but still I tried. I asked my sister to just close the program if nothing happens!!!

A minute or so, she called and asked me to close the program ‘coz the system was getting slower. Since, I was hopeless, I agreed. But when I open the unfinished converted video, the video became clearer.!!! Yahoo!!! this was so unexpected!!! Serendipity!!!

I beg her to just use the computer tomorrow ‘coz I will fully convert the video into mpeg files. I started converting at 1 in the morning and finished at about 2! Even I was so sleepy, I waited for it!!!

Thank God!!! Though it made me dizzy the following day, it was a very fulfilling experience!!!

God is really so good!!! He didn’t let things became worse!!!

=)))))))

Emoterong Icons!!!

Loner daw siya!!!

 
Bakit sa akin lang may ulan???

  
   Goon Jan Di!!!!!!! haha 
jun pyo kaw ba yan???

 
Palimos po..
Pangkain lang!!!

 
wag niyo po akong palayasin!!!
magsisipag na ako!!!
drama nito ahh!!!

  
Hindi po ako pagkain tao ako!!!


English to...patay tayo diyan!! haha


Im not a breast to produce milk!!!


penge!!! penge!!!


wag mo akong ginagalit!!!


group presentation!!!
practice lang yan...


pray lang ako...

kau rin!!!
haha

Drama ng mga to ahh!!!
=)))

The Last two Weeks of the Term...

We only have two weeks before the end of the term. Instead of partying with friends, I spent the days with these damn projects!!!

We have a lot of projects and requirements needed to pass the course. Lahat ata ng subject may project e!!! Bad trip!!!

From bible down to Natsci!!! I hate all of these...

We have bible of my life for bibstud, a movie review for comski, damn food festival and museum review for history, three reaction papers and two poems in joseriz and the PBl for Natsci...

What??? And today is the submission of some while the others are within this week and on the next week.... urrrgh... I'm tired!!!

Last night I finished editing the PBL presentation and I had a problem burning the files. After it was burned, the video became blurred. What a problem??? I don't know why, but it ruined everything, most especially my effort including my sleepless night!!!

Instead of worrying about it, I said to myself "be it". I have no idea on how to make some remedies with it. Lets just face the truth. The truth that that project will flank!!! haha... But, I think we'll still have grades naman e so ookay lang!! (bagsak nga lang!!! haha) =))

On thursday we'll have the "food festival". Food festival daw pero fiesta naman pala!!! Bakit yung food festival na pinuntahan ko hindi naman parang fiesta? This is just to show the dishes of the different regions. Why there are games and whatsoever that are not included in the said "festival"? ookay lang kaya sila??? Tanggap ko sana kung yung title nun "Happy Fiesta!!!" but the thing is not like that. tsktsk... pahirapan ba naman kame!!!

On Saturday we'll have the make-up classes. Make-up make-up make-up!!! puro na lang make-up!!! katamad na to ahh. .

Weekend... I will finish my "bible of my life". Ayy mali pala. Dapat I will start my "bible of my life" 'coz i haven't even started yet. haha... Pasaway!!!

Wish me luck!!! and hope that I will have the courage to do all of these!!!

=))))))))))))))

Love According to Him!

I entered the chapel of Benilde a while ago not to pray but just to be with somebody. There, has a fish bowl filled with strips of papers of quotation. I picked one, open it then read! According to some, that quotation might reflect your day or might also give an advice on how to start and spend your day!

The one I fetched says, ” Love”, according to Nathaniel Hawthorne, “whether newly born or aroused from a deathlike slumber, must create sunshine, filling the heart so full of radiance, this it overflows the outward world.”

Right after I read it, I asked myself, “If love must create sunshine, why some get hurt by it?” Too confusing right? As I leave the chapel and walked at the corridor, I kept asking myself, “why the author define love that way?”

Maybe he wasn’t able to experience love of others. But maybe not, ‘coz I think everybody do. I’m just wondering!!!

Or maybe he looked at love on its brightest side. Maybe he is optimistic! But you know its hard to be that way most especially when you experienced the pain not once but twice or even more!

Suddenly, another question popped up on my mind. “How will I start my day as what the quotation says if that against my perspective?” Hard thing to decide, but maybe its better to follow what my mind conceived ‘coz only myself can realize how my real world revolves.

The next time I go there, I will not pick even one. I don’t want to think and be confused of anything!!! =)))

Does History Really Repeat Itself???

Totoo nga ata talaga yung kasabihang "history repeats itself". Sa ngayon kasi ang daming nangyayari sa akin na nangyari na!!! Some were worthy to happen again but some were not. Di ko lam kung bakit pero tama bang yung mga bagay na gusto ko nang kalimutan, mangyari at maalala ko na naman. Lupet talaga ng buhay. Gusto ata ako pahirapan. In every different aspects of life ata na.experience ko na. Pero the recent ones was yesterday!!!

Masakit masaktan!!! Lalo na kung puso ang dahilan!!! Hhooot, drama na naman!!! hahaha Pag.broken hearted ka talaga kung ano.ano na lang naiisip moh ee noh? Katulad kagabi hindi ako makatulog kakaisip kung bakit nagkaganito. But before that, nagugutom ako pero hindi ako makakain coz i kept asking myself why did these things happened??? Wala lang siguro ako sa sarili kagabi kaya nangyari yun lahat!!!

Bakit hindi ako makatulog??? Geh manonood nga muna ako ng kay Cory!!! Baka sakaling antukin ako.

Ayaw talaga. Wa epek!!! Geh timpla muna ako gatas baka antukin ako. Kung kape kasi baka lalo akong hindi makatulog!!! Wala pa rin. Sa ref kaya may sleeping pills!!! As if naman may gumagamit nito sa amin. Pero try ko na rin baka ibigay ni Lord haha. Nahawa na ata ako kay Karla!!! Bro penge ngang pills!!! haha.

12 na hindi pa rin ako tulog. May pasok pa ako bukas ng 7. Kelangan kong gumising ng 4. Surely, lupay.pay ako tom!!! haha. bahala na nga. punta na ako bed baka sakaling tamaan ng antok!!! Naisip ko nga gayahin si Mr.Bean ee. Yung magbilang ng tupa sa isang portrait. At dahil nakakalito gumamit na lang siya ng calculator para malaman yung number ng sheeps dun. After knowing it, yun bigla siyang bumagsak! Tulog agad!!! hahaha.

Wow, di ko lam nakatulog na pala ako!!! Bakit ganun, pagkagising ko yun agad nasa isip ko? Leave me alone!!! haha. bakit parang tinatamad ako pumasok? Dahil ba tamad lang talaga ako o dahil ayaw ko siyang makita??? Tigas naman ng mukha ko kung ayaw ko siyang makita? After all ako naman gumawa nito ee! Sige tanggapin ko na lang na matigas face ko!!! haha

Parang ang bagal ko ata maglakad! Epekto pa rin ba to ng iniisip ko??? Bahala na. padala lang ako sa paa ko. Parang wlang patutunguhan tong paglalakad koh! Geh LRT na akoh. Makaupo nga muna dito. Ayaw ko tumayo baka matumba ako kakaisip!!!

"Vito cruz station!!!" okay dito na ako. Tayo na ako para mabilis makalabas! "Ting" Dahil wala ako sa sarili ko, wala akong pakialam sa mga tao sa paligid ko. At dahil dun, bigla kong nasunok yung lalaking katabi. Hindi ko naman sinasadya ee. Nakahawak ako sa Handrail tas paglabas ko syempre kelangan kong bumitiw dun, then suddenly bigla ko na lang nasuntok yung mukha!!! haha. Nagsorry ako kaya lang parang galit ata!!! Yung tipong gustong gumanti !!! tsktsk.

Lahat ng to naranasan ko na! Ibang tao nga lang yung kasama ko dito at this time akala ko alam ko na yung gagawin ko kapag na.meet ko yung ganitong problem. But, unfortunately, hindi pala!!! Hung.hang pa rin ako!!! =))))

End of the World???

Ahh, sakit ng katawan ko!!! Ang aga ko naman ata gumising ngayon!!! Nasaan na ba ung newspaper? Wala naman akong ginagawa ee, basa muna tayo. Actually, gawain ko talaga magbasa ng newspapers every morning. Wala lang pampalipas oras. Dagdag kaalaman na rin sa mga nangyayari sa lipunan!!!

Lahat ng columns binabasa ko. Whatever news they are,Ookz lang. Politics, crimes, sports, entertainment, opinions, at kung anu.anu pang katripan ng mga kolumnista. Basta, wala namang mangyayri kung babasahin ko di ba? Palipas oras lang talaga!!!

Page 1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10..11..12..13

Ha??? Totoo ba to??? Bakit yung columnist nagbibigay ng tips para makaligtas sa PAGGUNAW NG MUNDO??? Kung isulat pa naman niya parang totoo. Kagulat naman to. Ayaw ko pa mamatay noh?!

Sa December 12, 2012 daw yung event. Malapit na! Kelangan ko atang maghanda!!! huhu. Ano ba to? Ang aga.aga nananakot. Tsktsk!!! Meron naman daw makakaligtas. Pero after five days, may mga wars and any other skirmishes na magaganap between to big countries that may affect its neighboring nations!!! What??? Magugunaw na nga yung mundo meron pa ring wars? Adik ata tong writer na toh ee. Di ko tuloy alam kung maniniwala pa ako.

San rin kaya niya to nakuha? Ano siya Diyos, o si bathala, o kung sino mang manghuhula sa Quiapo? haha. Nadamay pa tuloy ung mga rumaraket sa Quiapo sa kagaguhan ng writer na toh.

To be continued na raw yung iba. Mukhang mapipilitan akong bumili ng Dyaryo bukas para subaybayan tong kagaguhan ng writer na toh ahh. Pero bakit ganun??? Kung ayaw kong maniwala sa kolumnistang to, bakit gusto kong basahin yung next litanya niya??? tsktsk. haha Baliw na rin ata ako... Pero, hanep yung writer ahh, nakuha niya yung attention koh!!! tsktsk

First Assignment

Nagpunta ako sa SAO, department ng mga volunteer students, volunteer kasi ako. Meron kasi ngayong packaging ng goods for the victims of typhoon kiko in Zambales. Nagpunta ako para tumulong. Unfortunately, tapos na pala. Pinadala na nila sa Zambales. Pero tuloy pa rin donations.

Since nandito na rin naman ako, binigyan nila ako ng assignment. First assignment ko as a volunteer. Simple lang naman. Kelangan kong i.post ung mga posters nila about nga sa donations for the victims. Tatlo lang naman ung pinapost nila sa akin. Yung iba kasi sa SDA na ipopost. Okay! Hawak ko na ung poster and the stapler. Lets get it on!!!

Hirap pala maghanap ng pwesto para magpost. Dami kasing nakalagay sa bulletin boards ee. Okay bahala na kung saan ko to ilalagay!!! Punta ako benilde building baka dun may pwesto, 2nd floor wala. 3rd floor wala rin. 4th floor, pls sana meron. Okay may bakante. Geh post ko na to! One down, two more. Hanap...Hanap...Hanap... Sa Solomon building may vacant!!! okay second poster dito ka!!! haha. Wow isa lang, saan ko kaya to lalagay??? solomon building 2nd floor, wala. 3rd floor wala. 4th floor wala rin!!! Geh Duerr naman ako 2nd floor, wala rin. 3rd wala, 4th, wala ulet. last chance ko Mutien!!! 2nd floor puno. 3rd may vacant kaya lang pag.aari yun ng OCA ee. Geh bahala na paalam na lang ako kung pwede ko ipost. Wow After 30 minutes ng paghahanap na.ipost ko rin!!! tnx OCA!!!

Balik SAO ako. Kugn gusto ko raw, sama raw ako sa pagpost ng mga posters at pagbigay ng flyers sa SDA. Same purpose. Para pa rin sa donations. Okay paninindigan ko na to!!! Sasama ako. Mga 1:30 pa raw. Geh comlab muna ako!!!

1:40 na... Ayy nakalimutan ko. geh out na muna ako!!! May appointment pa ako sa SAO. Nakilala ko dun ung iba ko pang mga c0-volunteers. Si Shane, si Jo at si Baron. Lahat sila medyo matagalk na sa SAO. Ako lang yun bago. Geh punta na kami sa SDA!!!

Ako and Jo ang assigned for the flyers. Si Baron naman sa posters. Geh simulan na toh!!! "Excuse me, donations lang poh for the victims of typhoon kiko in zambales!!!" Nakakahiya. Para akong namamalimos sa mga mayayamang to!!! Pero ookz lang. Trabaho yan!!! Tuloy ulit ako. "Excuse me. Donations for the victims of typhoon Kiko in Zambales!!!" Sana magbigay ung mga to. Para worth it naman ung pagod ko!!!

Iba.iba ung mga reactions nila. Ung isang grupong binigyan ko sa 9th floor, naaawa sila "ahhh, kawawa naman" ganun ung reactions nila. Meron naman sa may caft sa 12th floor, nakipag.usap pa sa akin. "Di ba ito ung sa bibstud, pinapadal kasi kami ng ganto ee" Sabi ko "ahh baka sa prof nio lang yun. Iba kasi to ee, SAO project to." Yung iba naman parang walang pakialam. Binigayan ko, binasa, inipit sa kung saan tas balik sa laptops nila. May korean akong binigyan. Binigyan ko tapos nag.explain ako ng tagalog. Hindi ata ako naintindihan. Hindi ko kasi napansin nung una na Korean pala xa. . haha

Okay unti na lang flyers ko. Baba kami sa ground floor. Lahat ng students dun binigyan ko para maubos na ung flyers ko. Saka antok na rin yung mata ko!!! Kelangan ko ng matulog. Lahat ng papasok binigyan ko. 3...2...1... Yahoo!!!ubos na!!!

Wow, natapos rin!!!! salamat

Tnx sa mga bago kong kaibigan at sa bagong experience!!! Sarap pala maging volunteer!!! Geh paninindigan ko na toh!!! hahaha =))))))))))))))

Different Faces!!!

When I was Higschool, siesta time naming mga magkakaibigan ang mag.observe ng mga tao. MAG.OBSERVE hindi para pag.aralan ung mga ugali nila. Kundi, MAG.OBSERVE para manglait ng tao. Ang sama namin noh? Pero dun kami masaya ee. Tanggap naman namin kung ano ung mga kapintasan namin ee.

Ngayong graduate na kami, hindi na namin nagagawa un. Minsan na lang pag.nagkikita.kita kame. Pero ako, tuloy pa rin. Kahit san ako magpunta, “nag.oobserve” ako ng mga tao. Mula sa bahay hanggang pagpasok sa school mga mukha at porma ng tao ang tinitignan ko.

Minsan, paglabas ko ng bahay tas naka corporate attire ako, may mga lalaking topless, punong.puno ng tattoe. Minsan tuloy iniisip ko baka mamaya holdapin ako ng mga to. E wala naman silang mahihita sa akin ee. Walang laman wallet ko, wala akong cellhone. Kaya okay lang kung holdapin nila ako, sila lang mapapahiya haha. Saka experience din yun. hindi pa kasi ako nahoholdap haha.

Marami akong mga nakakasabay sa paglalakad at hindi sila nakakaligtas sa paningin ko!. May mga todo porma, kala mo party ung pupuntahan un pala boy and saleslady lang sa Baclaran. Kung maka make.up kasi kala mo may date. Meron naman kung makatingin kala mo mas pogi pa sa akin. Ung mukha naman parang galing ibang planeta. May mga kung maglakad kala mo kanila ung daan. Samantalang mas masarap pa tignan ung kalsada kesa sa katauhan nila haha.

Paakyat na ako sa LRT, meron dun makikipag.unahan sau sa pila. Dami kasing tao lagi ee. Kala mo pila ng bigas ung pupuntahan. Kung pila nga yun ng bigas baka nakipag.away pa ako sa pila haha. Basta ako makapasok lang ako sa lrt okay na. Bahala kayong makipag.unahan! Sanay naman akong late ee. haha! Yung guard pa namang babae, ang sungit! Kung makasigaw kala mo nanay ko. Pwede naman kasing sabihin ng maayos maninigaw pa. Hindi ko lang naman nailagay sa table ung bag ko galit na. Crush ata ako nito ee. Tsktsk. Pagpila ko sa bilihan ng ticket, may nagmamadali. Nagtanim ata to ng bomba sa lrt ee!!! Pero wala pa rin akong paki! mamatay na ang mamatay haha. Ung babae naman sa unahan ko, bumili ng ticket to carriedo. Nagbayad pero hindi kinuha ung card niya! Si ate talaga, nagsayang ng pera. Adik!!! Okay turn ko na. “vito cruz”, Hindi narinig. “Vito cruz ho” wala pa rin!!! Bingi ata to ee. “Vviittoo ccrruuzz hhoo!!!” gagalitin pa ako ee.. aga.aga! tsk. Okay hawak ko na ung magnetic card ko. Papasok na sana ako, bigla kong napansin ung maglola. Pilit tinutulak nung lalaki ung revolving steel ata tawag dun. Basta ung pinto para makapasok sa lrt. Hindi mabuksan. Ayaw! Panu nga naman kasi bubukas un e hindi naman nia ininsert ung magnetic card nila. Adik! Naka.drugs ata! Gusto kong tumawa kaya lang baka naman ma.insulto sila. Kaya sa isip ko na lang sila ininulto haha. Masama pa rin!

Pagpasok ko sa lrt. Okay unti tao! Dito ako malapit sa pinto para mabilis makababa. Buti na lang unti lang tao. Hindi hussle!! Ung katapat kong lalaki, ang pogi ng buhok. Panigurado patay butiki pag nahulog sa buhok niya! Ung katabi naman niya, wala atang tulog. Kulang na lang humiga sa may gitna para feel at home!!! Halos malaglag na kasi sa pagkakaupo sa sobrang antok. Sa edsa, dumog na naman ung tao. Pero at least hindi katulad nung dati. May pumasok, barkada sila. Taga-benilde pa ata! Ang hangin ng mga to! Sabi nung isa “pre, buti na lang hindi ako sumama nung frosh night,kundi nagkita.kitakami ng mga -ex ko.” Ang hangin nito ahh, tinignan ko mukha, s*** ang pogi, kamukha ni pacman!!! T***i**, mukang yun may pumatol!!! hindi lang isa, madami pa raw! Hirap maniwala!!! Tumingin na lang ako sa labas, sa langit. Baka sakaling makita ko gusto kong makita.haha

“Vito cruz station, vito cruz” okay. babaan na!!! time for school na!!!

Hhaayy, kulang pa yan!!! Marami pa akong ibang napansin at iba pang mabibiktima ng malikot kong mata!!! =))))))

college!!! college??? college...

One morning, habang naglalakad akoh sa corridor ng Benilde, bigla kong natanong sarili koh, " parang kelan lang hindi ako dito naglalakad para pumunta sa classroom ko".

"Hindi ako nag-e-lrt para pumunta sa skul". Dati kasi dumadaan akoh sa isang eskinita sa may Pasay. Eskinitang kung mtatakutin ka mas mabuti pang wag ka na dumaan. O kaya wag ka na pumasok kung "masipag ka mag-aral." Pero ngayon sa may Baclaran na ako nadaan para pumunta sa Baclaran station. Dun hindi mo pa namumulat mata moh, sankatutak na ang tao. Okay na sana kasi marami ka nang kasabay sa paglalakad pero another prob na naman. Yung mga taong makakasalubong mo, walang pakialam sa tao sa paligid nila. I mean, kahit nakikita ka na sa harapan nila, bubungguin ka pa samantalang ang lawak-lawak ng daan. Pagsiksikan ba naman ung sarili sa dinadaanan ko. Halak ata mga kaluluwa ng mga to ee.

Dati, pajeep.jeep lang ako. Ngayon naka.lrt na ako! Sa jeep mainit. Kahit bagong ligo ka, magmumuka kang tigang at isang linggong hindi naligo. Parang minsan tuloy gusto kong maligo sa skul para fresh ulit. haha! Sa lrt naman, may aircon pero hindi mo ramdam. Nagtitipid ata. Ewan ko ba sa sa management. Hindi ba sulit binabayad namin??? Ngayon, hindi mo na kelangan pang magpara sa jeep para bumaba. Vito cruz destinasyon ko lapit lang. At least kung bababa ka, dun talaga sa dapat mong bababaan. Unlike sa jeep, sampung beses ka nang nag-para, wala pa ring pakialam ung driver. Kung babae lang ako iisipin ko may crush ata sakin ung driver!!! haha. Imbes sa may Pasay City Hall ako baba, sa may DFA na ako napupunta! Ang layo. Isang kilometro?? haha.

Minsan, nung highschool ako, napasok ako kahit walang id. Kindatan mo lang yung security guard, ookz na haha. o kaya kung naiwan mo magdahilan ka lang ng kung ano-ano. Pero ngayon, id ata ang pinakaimportante!!! Hmmm, hindi rin baon pa rin pala talaga!!! haha. Dati naman kung dala mo id moh, pakita mo lang na suot mo pwede ka nang makapasok, pwede mo na rin tanggalin kung nabibigatan ka sa id moh Pero ngayon, pa-swipe-swipe na ako. Nung first few days nga ng schooldays, hindi ko ginagamit yun ee. Pinapakita ko lang yung schedule ko. Hindi kasi ako marunong gumamit nung id dati ee. haha! Bakit ba? nagpapakatotoo lang naman! Till one time, may nagturo sa akin kung panu gamitn. I asked kasi. Sabi ko sa babae sa likod ko habang nakapila, "miss panu gamitin to?" kahit nakakahiya ginawa ko yun. At least natuto naman ako. may silbi talaga ang pagtatanong ee.

Nung highschool pa ako, hindi ako dumideretso sa classroom. Canteen muna ako pag gutom ako. Bahala na ung time. Tutal late na naman ako. Sagarin na naten. Pero ngayon diretso sa classroom. Ang mahal kasi ng mga pagkain ee. . Kulang nga ata ung baon ko sa mga bilihin dito sa Benilde ee. tsktsk. After canteen, akyat na ako sa "Mt. Everest." Sa fourth floor kasi ung classroom namen. Kapagod kaya umakyat! Pagdating dun, bubungad sakin yung teacher kong hindi ordinaryo. Kung magsalita kasi parang galit. Sabi niya hindi naman daw siya galit. ganun lang daw siya talaga. Pero pagpapasok ako ng late, grabe, masisindak ka sa boses niya! Yung tipong, mas gugustuhin mo pang umabsent kesa sermonan niya. Ngayon, kahit late ka ookz lang. Sulatan lang ng prof kong late sa index card ko, yun na yun! Wala nang kung anu.ano pang sermon!!!
Haayyy, ibang.iba talaga sa college!!! Minsan tuloy natatanong ko sa sairli ko "College na pala ako!!!" at sabay sigaw College na ako!!!

Katamaran ng Estudyante!!!!

7:30 na hindi pa ako nakakaalis ng bahay!!! panigurado late na naman akoh nito. . pero ookz lang!!! kakatamad kasi pumasok. . buti nga pumasok pa kesa absent!

Habang nasa daan hindi ko lam ang bagal pala ng lakad ko. . pinagtitinginan akoh ng mga tao. baka iniisip nung mga yon nabubuang na ako!!! Pero wala pa rin akong paki, kakatamad maglakad ee, , bakit ba? Ang sarap kaya maglakad pag mabagal!

Sa LRT kakabanas, ang daming tao! lagi na lang maraming tao. Minsan natatanong ko sa sarili koh "bakit pag unti tao sa baclaran station unti rin ung tao sa edsa. .pero pag dumog ang baclaran station mas marami pa ung sa edsa?" kelangan ba ganun lagi? at bago ka pa makalabas gusot na damit mo! Kulang na lang habulin ka ng flat iron para mawala ung gusot!

Haayyy. . Salamat nakalabas din sa impyernong lugar na yun. Ang init, parang walang aircon ung loob! Nagtitipid ata sila.

Alas otso na papasok pa lang akoh ng benilde. Kinakanta na ung hymm ng Benilde so kelangan kong huminto for respect! At kung hindi naman kasi akoh huminto, D.O abot ko!!! kawawa namana koh kung ganun, haha after ten minutes lakad-pagong na naman ako. Third floor pa lang hingal na ako. Punta muna ako C.R. tutal late na naman ako, sagarin na naten! Saka sira ung C.R sa fourth floor, ilang linggo ng under maintenance hanggang ngaun under maintenance pa rin!

Paglabas ko panibagong pakikipagsapalaran na naman. Akyat ulit ng hagdan! Bago pa man ako makarating sa classroom ko, tunaw na ung breakfast na kinain ko! Exactly 8:30 pumasok akoh sa class. Ayon, parang wala lang nangyari. Ung prof walang question bakit ka late? panu wala rin naman kasi syang records for the attendance.

haayyy, buhay nga naman!!!

A Lesson Learned!!!!

Today is the presentation of the movie assigned to us. It was Jose Rizal class then, when I was bothered about the sudden reaction of a girl if she watched the video whose content was all about her.

Before my group mates shoot the scene I asked them if they already compromised it to the girl involved. It goes like this, " Guyz, sinabi nio na ba toh kay k****?". They replied, "hindi pa e," I shouted panu kung magalit siya?". They answered, "i-shoot na natin para kung pumayag man siya o hindi, nagawa na natin. No choice na siya!!!" then laugh. I smiled just to ride with their laughters.. Then I just sat at the back thinking if I were in her placed, what would be my reaction to it!

I felt guilt when I realized the things me and my classmates did bad to her. The teases, the "devil" laughters, and anything that made her feel like she was all alone. I want my group mates to talked about it but I don't have the courage to do it so 'coz they might misunderstand the things I might say. I just wait for the moment of presentation.

This is it!!! The moment has come. When she entered the class I kept on looking at her thinking of her reaction to what will happen next. The video was viewed. She was in front watching the video. She wasn't shocked 'coz my group mates had already informed her about this. I just don't know when. She smiled as everybody smiled. She laughed as everybody laughed!!!

During the evaluation of the video, my professor asked her about the video. My prof said, "k****, what can you say about the video knowing that it was you who was impersonated and viewed?", (something like that, I forgot the exact words!)

" Sorry kung may mga mali akong nagawa." She replied in teary eye.

Despite of her emotional moment, she kept on smiling and laugh as possible as she can. I noticed that she was about to cry but she tried to stop her tears from falling to hide the feelings she had that time.

Only then when I realized the real intention of the group as our professor implied it. That was to made everybody realized the wrong doings they did as a student especially to this girl. The teases, the bully, the peer pressures, the blackmail and everything!

My professor actually praised her for giving that answer. 'Coz the mere fact that the video was not meant for her, she accepted the things that sometimes made her classmates, including me, against to what she did.

My eyes were only glancing for someone and that was to her. She kept making herself stronger 'coz she laughed even though there were tears suspended in her eyes. She always wiped the tears on her eyes out not to show loneliness!!!

The day ended in reconciliation!!! I hope these were all sincere and not just for personals' sake!!!

Lesson Number 1:
Do not look at yourself as if you are perfect. You might hurt someone without noticing it 'coz you look at this person differently!!!

Lesson Number 2:
Look at a person on their good attributes not on their negative side. This will make her realized the things he/she did wrong!!!

Am I Really Happy???

I posted last time that I was happy being enrolled in my present school. All the things I thought about the atmosphere of the university including the people were all affirmatives. Till one day, I asked myself. Am I really happy dealing with them???

Last night, I actually asked myself the same question as above. But I don't know what to answer on my own query.. Its hard to say no but I can't lie saying that I do. Maybe, I would not be bothered if happiness conquer my emotions! I cited some instances that sometimes made me feel alone. I travelled back few days before noticing this situation. There were three questions promptly arrived.

-Isn't it because of the family problem I am currently facing off??? Am I too affected with it?

-Isn't it because of my personal problems like falling for someone inevitably? Or

-Is it just because I'm not yet comfortable dealing with my "classmates"?

Its hard to weigh which of these three really made this feeling. But what I know is that these three made contributions to my present self. I'm having hard time with this situation. But it will be resolved, I think! In spite of that, I already have my friends that's Karla, Ferdi, Hervi, and Kim and we actually known as "The Champions". But still I don't know why I'm longing for the happiness I felt when I was high school.

Ahh. . I think I know now the answer!!! Isn't because I misses the life I had when I was high school, Is it? Or isn't, with relation to the first, because I misses my friends, or somehow my true friends, during those times? The laughters we always have to make everyday a memorable day of our friendship!!!

Let me think!!!

She passed away!!!

I just made a poem for Pres. Cory during her hospitalization. A prayer perse. But in just few days after, she leaved us. 

Its hard for us to say "goodbye" to a woman whom we loved and supported from the start. Im not yet living when she became the president of this country. But the knowledge i have learned during our history discussion was a big impact to my perspective about the" Mother of Democracy". She brought back the life all filipinos ever wanted after the regime of previous administration. 

But we dont have a choice but to say so. She passed away physically but the fact that she contributed to the present circulaton was not and cannot be vanished. Its a "tattoe" in the blood and lineage of Filipinos.

She might be the contemporary hero of every filipinos. 

We will not forget you Mrs. President!!!

Thank you for all the things you made for the sake of our country. You really mean so much to us. The goodness, the principle and the lessons you have showered on us will not be ceased off. It will remain forever. It will be an inspiration to the generations to come.

Thank you so much!!!!